Another Year of Sobriety

     It's been a very long time since my last drink.  Never thought I drank  more or less than any other garden variety drunk.  But when I got to a point where remembering what I had for supper the night before was a problem I knew things needed to change.  I wasn't a ragging drunk every time I drank but I sure reached for that second, third, fourth and fifth drink almost  every time I started drinking.  Trying to convince myself that the social drinker fit my  profile faded fast.  It's true I couldn't function socially without a drink but I never really used that reason as an excuse to drink.  The excuse used most often was "I've had a hard day, need a drink to unwind"  the only problem was one drink was never enough.
     In retrospect I should have done something about my drinking problem a long time before I did.  Thinking I was always in control,  it would be easy to stop drinking when ever I wanted to.  That was my second problem, alcoholics have no control at all.  Every attempt at sobriety failed and to make matters  worse even after short periods of sobriety I found myself drinking more.  Finally one day there came a point were it was hard to make it through the day without a drink.  Even at that point it still took me five years to get to my first AA meeting.  Need I say more, Alcoholics Anonymous saved my life.  In my wildest dreams, never did I ever think it was possible to put fifteen years of continues sobriety together but I have.  That fifteen years was one day at a time.