Finding Sobority

     Thinking happiness meant flinging yourself from one high to the next, it took a long time for me to find sobority.  Sobority meant the end of fun as I knew it and I sure was not ready to give up fun.  Never hanging with sober people very much,  I clang to the fact that the only way to find happiness was in a drunken stupor.  Yes you can  say I was in complete denial but like every alcoholic I thought I could handle the problem.  Nobody ever told me I had a drinking problem but that's probably because the person next to me was an alcoholic also. As time passed the drinking became a solitary affair and that's when I thought I might have a slight problem with alcohol.  It wasn't until I became an emotional disaster that the perceived problem became real.
     It's hard to explain how I've managed to stay sober all these years other than repeat an AA classic "One Day At A Time".   I won't go into the moment of when I bottomed out, that's a personal matter but I'm pretty sure that bottom is the reason for my sobority.  I'll just say a brief moment of clarity made me realize I had better change my ways.
     Sobority is not as horrible as I thought it would be.  There are good days and bad days, happiness and depression but I can deal with all those emotions as long as I'm sober.  So how did I find sobority?  It's as easy as One Day At A Time.  That's worked since September 1999 but you never know because tomorrow is another day.