An Alcoholic Demon

    My story is not unique!  Lots of people like myself question whether they have a problem with alcohol or drugs or both.  But like all those people, denial is a powerful demon.  That little demon kept me from pursuing sobriety for many years.  It's easy for an alcoholic to continue his or her drinking when  they surround themselves with other people who drink.  Those drinking buddies help put the alcoholic's mind at ease.  If you drink long enough sooner of later you're going to get out of control and someone is going to call your game.  When that happens, an alcoholic will avoid those people like the plague.  Once that happens a few times, the alcoholic continue his or her drinking in isolation as to avoid those public screw up.  That isolation gives the alcoholic the excuse "I'm not hurting anyone" so I'll pour myself another and another and another.
     Today everything fits together like a puzzle.  I am grateful for my struggle with alcohol and drugs because it pushed me to my breaking point.  Addiction allowed me to find sobriety while admitting I was in denial about a lot of things.  In  one day I'll celebrate another sober New Years Eve, an event  I still cant believe. would have ever been possible for this alcoholic.